Last night I went on a real coffee-meetup-date thingy.  With a real person.  And I rocked!    After spending enough time acting like an ass in my room, picking out the girly clothing and complaining about how I looked, I was ready for failure.  But walking into the coffee shop something just clicked.  Unlike being in a room full of people and feeling uncomfortable and sitting silently, a subconscious switch flipped in my brain, and I was absolutely at ease, just one of the guys, and incredibly relaxed.   Awkward--pshaw.   Hanging out with someone new, especially one-on-one is incredibly awkward, but I just went with it and really came into my own.      Apparently, though, he's read all the books on dating, and thinks that asking me about me the whole time the best way to converse.   No worries, next time we hang out, he's the one who will be getting all the questions.   

Score for the night:  Amanda's awesomeness 1,  Fail 0.

Also, I then took Emily out for dinner, gossipped like I was in the fifth grade, and danced to "Personal Jesus" on the table-side jukebox.    Yesterday was awesome.

I read through some of my old posts... and I realize that I sound like spoiled, bratty, little rich girl. I would hope I am none of the above, but man alive I sound like that. Sometime I think I need more depth... a better way to put that would be I need people to see more of the depth I think I have. That made no sense... alright... on to my ( weekend summary )

At the beach, and not bored... but enjoying the nice relaxing swimming, biking and oceaning.

Having internet access is a nice addition to this house (as well as my media library)

as a side note... everyone I know should get skype. It is so nice......very nice.

I've been watching TV and making art and reading all day. I feel so so icky. Not in the vomitrotious way, but in the my throat really hurts and I want to cry from pain sort of way.

I turned on the tube to Anistasia... when I was younger I always thought Dimitri was a hottie... I really think its hilarious that now I can't even see this movie and hear their voices without knowing the actors. Dimitri is John Cusack (and he is a hottie). I IMDB's that movie. It is fabulously star studded. I think that's amazing. Meg Ryan, John Cusack, Kelsey Grammer, Christopher Lloyd, Hank Azaria, Bernadette Peters, Kirsten Dunst,and Angela Lansbury.... Holy Crap. That's a lot of people.

But what is so great about vista? It just looks and feels more like an apple.... and I hate apples. Maybe I need to give it some time to grow on me.

I need to do my work
I need to sleep more
I need to read books I actually want to


I need a life.

I find it so appropriate that I listened to both Bewitched and Gay Messiah and then found out that my beloved Alan Cumming married his boyfriend, Grant Shaffer last week.


ps- featherduster is absolutely right. Go see History Boys.

I saw an amazing and fantastic blues guitarist named Guy Daivs. He was amazing and incredible and did i mention fucking amazing.

Mom took me out for a excellent dinner at James on Market and we went to wee Guy Davis. I spent the afternoon with my Grandmother and I'm making the most amazing dinner tomorrow.

Life is good. Even with its crap, Life is so incredibly good.

I've closed some doors that needed it.
I've opened (or at least peeked into) doors that are promising.

I'm happy.

Bring it on, world! Siriusly.