I do nothing, and am tres boring. That's my own fault.

Homecoming on Saturday, still no date (but that's normal) but i'm having partyage at my house. And my beloved Katharine may come with me! Maybe she'll be my date :-P

Today was a great day. Other than boring play practice, i had counties. COUNTIES ROCKED. I got to see my beloveds *cough* anniemelaniecarolinekatharine *cough* and make new friends too *cough*Kyle, Amanda, Erin, Joshua Lynch and Dan (and the girl that stands behind me and i haven't learned her name yet) I had all sorts of fun goofing off with my beloved annie. I got to see Brian for the first time in FOREVER!!!! I got hugs and made new friends...and sang a lot. Sounds like a rocking good time to me!

featherduster moves tomorrow. *dies* I remember when we made up that name. I still have them sitting on my desk. I know I'm acting like she's dying but it just solifies that my world is almost completely gone. I'm not very good with change. I'm going to end up crying tonight when i see her, i just know it.

In other news - i'm a pitifully miserable little person.

How can one person be in a room full of people who have some affection for them, and feel absolutely unloved and alone. I don't get it. Anyone can say they love you, anyone can have a ton of friends...yet why, when i try to be amicable and loving to i feel so isolated. Its been years, and i don't get it. This "depression" or whatever it is makes me eternally sad, gain weight and god only knows what else. What does it take for someone to be happy? Can it be explained?

I'm quite boring el-jay as you can see plainly. Apparently, i'm also exremely more masculine than i ever though. Mr. Palese cast me as a guy "Mr. Beaver" in the fall play (although there IS a shortage of guys...) Kady Chambers is my wife Mrs. Beaver...hmmm. Alex keeps picking on me during chem by saying "Maybe in Narnia they've changed the gay marrige laws". He makes me soo mad. Kady and i are taking over the drama club, because of last year's failure, and we're redoing it. We're even going to write and revise the manifesto. Exciting stuff. Did i tell you I'm the assistant director AND i get to do costuming??? squee! it makes me happylicious. Being sick isn't fun though...i think i'm still dying (probably a sinus infection) but i'm dying of brain cancer. Amy thinks that's funny. :-P The thesbians i know are soo awesome. They're from everywhere, Mike is a soccer player, Amy and Joanne are cheerleaders, Kady and I are in band....it's such a great mix. And its killer fun. (Except when Mike is talking about touching his mane.) Come See The Lion The Witch and The Wardrobe dates will be up soon.

I thought about Andy today, for no reason at all. I think I may be falling for Andrew Schall. (that rhymed :-P) And i miss my friends. I never get to see Annie, Kat, Jason or Mary anymore... It's truly sad. I'm having a movie day on saturday, and anyone's invited (just kindly let me know first) But we're going to sit around, eat junk food and watch fun movies (Labyrinth and Rocky Horror??? fun fun!)
That's all for now, for i have class at 7 and i must be sleeping...

Student Part Speaking Part
Aimee Hoffman Aslan Army

Alex Keller Edmund x

Amanda Bannon Mr. Beaver x

Amy Brown White Witch x

Andrew Cameron 2nd Army x

Annie Leister Unicorn x

Ariel Bojeun 5th Animal x

Ariel Islam Aslan's Army

Brittany Banzhoff 3rd Animal x

Chris Brinkley 1st Army x

Christie Sim 2nd Animal x

Drew Dexter Ferus Ulf x

Janelle Sadarananda 6th Animal x

Joanne Thieu Elf x

Kady Chambers Mrs. Beaver x

Kara Loving Centaur x

Katarina Aberer Witch's Army x

Katherine Uvick Aslan's Army

Katie Steinour Tumnus x

Katlyn Corrigan Aslan's Army

LeeAnn Hoover Witch's Army

Liz Illar 1st Animal x

Maddie Seefeldt Aslan's Army

Madeline Lylo Witch's Army

Mary Cameron Lucy x

Meghan Freas Susan x

Meghan Hoffman 4th Animal x

Mike Hallett Aslan x

Sarah Blaine Witch's Army

Sarah Easton Aslan's Army

Sarah Hendry 2nd Newcomer x

Sarah Rathbun Witch's Army

Sarah Uvick Dwarf x

Tessie Dernbach 1st Newcomer x

Thomas Shultz Peter x

You feel sweaty bodies rub against you. It's unnerving...but you get used to it as you fall in to a rhythym. Faces, some familiar some not, pass yours with every face a new emotion. They all, however, have one thing in common with you....you're all on your way into Beaver Stadium to watch the Nittany Lions oblitherate the Ackron Zips! (BTW what on God's green earth is a Zip?)

Was in State College today...was sooo totally rocksy. I love Penn State, they kick so much ass. And Joe-pa was my neighbor when i was little! I love PSU...and you can so totally tell i'm a bandie when i'm playing the fingerings to the Blue Band music on my water bottle. I really want to be in Blue Band now! Maybe i'm just hyped cause i love Penn State! Woo hoo PSU 46 -- Ackron 10!

*State College is my town* i just thought i'd let everyone know that. I know where everything is, and if i could live there...i so would. It's my Pennsylvanian Utopia! (but now i've got that out of my system)

****Mary, dahling... Garden State tomorrow or monday?****

Well, i'm officially tired of competing with Christina. She always wants to be better than me..always tries to one up... but i'm tired of it. i just want to be myself...no strings, no annoyances...nothing. just me..plain and simple

In other news... I am going to start posting my stories, poems, and other such mind blurbs in my ifeeldarkness eljay. This one shall for now and ever more be friend only blatherings about the hideously obnoxious life that i lead. many bitchings, and boring hullabaloos...things of that nature.

Despite everything, Milne poems make me feel like a kid again, even if just for a second.

( Forgiven )

Hooray for A.A. Milne